What was I waiting for? Damn! that is a question I find hard to answer myself, not at the rarest but the most frequenting moments. Everyday, I swivel my head from side to side, to find people trying to fight their way out. For some the motivational pushover is survival, whereas for some it could be termed as 'Ambition'. But, for the fact they all have it, something to drive them towards the light, is where my vision fails me.
The next thought that crosses your mind, "Hey it's just another arsehole bringing out his anecdote, which would turn out to be the epitome of idiocy." But, I sit and write here not for those who fail to draw the curtain of ignorance, and have gone blind or deaf, but for those who might be able to relate, and may be able to pick up clues to fit their never-ending puzzle.
PEOPLE
That is one thing, we never get tired of looking at. Everywhere, all the time. It is like they are constantly crawling through your skin and tugging from beneath or acting as a substitute for the pacemaker. They are those species who will fight for their existence and contradictarily annihilate their own habitat while not even sparing their own means of existence. Their could be many explanations to this uncanny behaviour. Conclusions can be drawn from various outlooks. My prospect may be agreeable to a view or may contravene the same. However, I will put forth my views inconsiderably but not with the intention of vitiating sentiments.
There are times, when I feel like tossing it all out the window and entering a life of solitude. Then again there are times, which makes me realise that it would negate the value of my whole existence. There is also another outlook to it, we tend to get so habituated to, which makes it all the more difficult to break the chain.
It starts to become a part of your everyday life, to fight a battle, and your life reduces to nothing but a mere battle. The warfield may seem to feel like heaven comapred to what you have to put up against as a common man. On the battle field, the soldiers are constantly aware of the fact that they are under constant surveillance. But when it comes to the common lives (which is the inappropropriate utilisation of the term), they are under someone's eye, but under who's eye (not many are aware of). The challenges and threats they face are incessant in diminishing a man's moral values. But it is at this point, which differentiaites a superhuman and a mundane one. This might invoke a thought in your mind about having come across this or similar statements many a time, but on a generic note, it is with consistency that thoughts are comprehensively and perennially etched in the mind.
The first thing that flashes across my mind when correlated with people, is trust. It might be said that in this epoch, where a section of the humans are bent on the ruination of the world, whereas there is the other part(comaparatively smaller in number) who strive for the betterment. The question is, which side of the river do we dock. Do we buy what the dubious person has to say, or do we just scrutinize him and most probably deject absolutely everything that he has to offer. The series of questions are difficult to answer. A lot of people can figuratively read faces, some get strong hunches, some indulge into a gruelling thought process. Even then we can never be certain.
What is the reason behind our uncertainity? It is a question that we ponder over for long hours maybe without reaching to a conclusion even. Going with my perspective, maybe we torment ourselves unconsciously, prioritizing our past and the future over our present. Thought processes similar to this, need to undergo a transformation. It is time to lend a greater amount of significance to the present over the present and the future. We ought to concentrate on 'This is now'. There is never 'nothing happening'. Significant things keep occuring all the time, maybe directly in your own life or indirectly relating to you. All one needs is presence of mind. Most of us are so engrossed with the other tenses, that they forego the present.
If we can buckle down, concentrate on what we do at every particular moment without considering the past or the present, we might be able to recover lost ground. There are many a instance when we think about consequences and the events of the past, that restrains us from accomplishing many victories. It is this that instills fear in us, making us paralyzed without allowing us to optimize ourselves to the fullest. I do not ask you to ignore the past and the future, but place the present on a higher level of significance to pave the raod to hit the bulls eye!
